About a year ago I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. The fact that I had depression was very apparent to me, I didn’t really need to be told. I was a little more surprised about the anxiety but now looking back I’ve always been a little more stressed and worried then other people my age even when I was very young. I was lucky enough to get help when I needed it. Two therapists provided by the NHS and anti-depressants and I’ve not seen much of an improvement. Although it’s easier to identify symptoms and bad habits.
The last few years have been hard. I lost my father very suddenly and now I’ve lost my motivation for the thing I’ve always loved. I’ve always been driven and hard working but with a lack of motivation caused by my depression and anxiety I feel kind of stuck in a hole and I don’t know how to get out of it.
I started a university course in September but left after a month with the hope of finding my happiness again. I really want to be happy. I want to enjoy life and live a very long time so with my time away from education I am writing a blog to help my find this joy I lack. Hopefully life will get better and I will start to find my reason to live again.