Where do I begin?
I was so looking forward to going to University. I am the first to pursue higher education in my immediate family and I do love to learn especially when I’m passionate about the subject.
However, having expectations of something is often my downfall. Nothing can ever live up to my expectations and when it doesn’t I get VERY depressed.
So, when I got to university and I wasn’t as happy as I believed I would be well…….. things went downhill pretty quickly.
Thankfully I have not relapsed into self-harm which I’m proud of and I have purposefully sought out support within my university’s support system and my own.
So, I haven’t made any “friends” yet and have struggled to stay on top of my work since dark Nancy has perched herself on my shoulder to whisper cruel things in my ear. But, the last few days have been good and when you struggle with a mental illness the good times are always extra good.
One downfall of depression for me is that I will not take care of my spending habits because well come on buying something feels good. Instant gratification and all that. So….. I’m pretty much fucked.
When it comes to blogging, I’ve missed it but it felt like a chore. Something I didn’t look forward to and caused me depression and feeling like a failure.
I am going to try and post Mental Mondays regularly as possible and go from there.
Leave any tips or stories for university struggles in the comments!
Thanks for reading